Week 12 has brought a lot of emotional instability. Particularly when food is involved. For whatever reason my cravings and aversions are worse this time than they have been in the past. I find myself craving things I haven't had in 15 years or more. It's crazy.
Take yesterday for example. I wanted a tuna salad grinder like nobody's business. It was completely consuming and nothing else would work in lieu of a tuna salad grinder. Fortunately, I had everything needed to make one at home. So, I did.
OMG. It was the BEST tuna salad grinder I've ever had in my life. I ate the entire thing in one sitting, when I normally only eat 1/2 a grinder at a time. It was so good that I found myself CRYING from the intense pleasure I was getting from eating it. Even to myself that sounds ridiculous, but then I start thinking about the taste and feeling of eating that sandwich and the emotions start coming to the surface again. It was that good.
I feel like I need to take a moment to defend myself a little bit and mention that I'm not someone that get emotional over food. I don't let food control me and I'm good at saying no to overindulging (most of the time). So crying over a sandwich was really strange.
Other than that, the morning sickness has eased off for the most part and I'm slowly getting my energy back. I still feel lightheaded a lot, and that's my main complaint at this point.
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