Pregnant With Baby #3

I really really hope that nobody in my family reads this blog because we haven't told them yet that we're expecting baby #3. In fact, we just found out for sure ourselves last night.

This was not a planned pregnancy. In fact, I was on the cusp as to whether or not I even wanted a 3rd child even though my husband wanted another... in a year or two. We were actively preventing pregnancy and yet somehow it happened anyway. Oh well, what's done is done and there's no turning back now.

This is going to sound stupid, but I think I've known myself for about a week now. I kept having strange pulling sensations and I noticed I was bloated. The big trigger was that I didn't get my monthly migraine this time, which told me something was up. Turns out, that "something" was a baby.

I don't know how other moms feel when they find out they are having a surprise 3rd baby, but for me, excitement was not my first emotion. I was (and still am) scared, nervous, and irrationally angry at my husband because we both know this is HIS fault. ;-) Most of all, I'm dreading telling our families. We don't have the types of families that are like hooray! Go you! Every pregnancy announcement has been met with my mother frowning and asking, "are you SURE this is what you want?" followed by, "You're throwing your life away. I hope this is the last one. You don't seem very happy." -- how can I be happy when facing that reaction? Anyway, I digress. My mother-in-law is usually a better sport, but given that she just went through a divorce and doesn't believe in happily ever after anymore, I'd say she's going to be less than thrilled for us. In case you haven't read any of my previous posts, my sister-in-law is a psycho, so she'll be upset. My brother-in-law hasn't been excited about anything since he found out he was gay. My brother won't care - he's a bachelor in his mid-30's and is rarely around. My sister will be mad. She tried for 8 or 9 years to have a 2nd baby without any luck. The first one was hard to come by as well and yet I seem to get pregnant at the drop of a hat. So you see, it won't be a fun announcement to make. In fact, I wish we could keep it a secret until about 6 months in...

Well, I get to keep it a secret for another month or so until my daughter's birthday party. I figure by 8, almost 9 weeks I'll probably be showing given that this is baby #3. Now I just have to get myself psyched up about it. Stop thinking of the bad things and just think about the good stuff... like not sleeping for 3 months, swollen boobs, labor and losing the weight. :-/ That didn't really work.

Any tips for a 3rd time mom that's not thrilled to be a 3rd time mom???