Happy Birthday to my daughter who just turned 1 today. It's both a great day and a bittersweet day. On one hand, I'm happy to see the progress my little girl has made over the past year. She's almost walking, she's talking and she is totally off of baby food. She sleeps through the night and is growing beautifully.
On the other hand, I now have 2 toddlers and I don't know if I want more kids. My husband does, he wants to try for a boy. I always thought I wanted more than 2 kids, but now I'm not so sure. Two kids are a handful and I don't know if I can handle a third. I also don't know if I want to go through the whole pregnancy, labor, recovery, not sleeping through the night for 4 months routine again. That was hard, and I'm not getting any younger.
Part of me wants to just call it quits and watch as my two beautiful, smart, loving kids grow up into equally beautiful, smart and loving adults. Another part of me wonders if the next one might be the boy that my husband wants. Part of me wants another pregnancy, since I didn't take the time to appreciate my last two. I just don't know... do I sell the baby gear while it's still relevant and I can get a good price, or do I hang onto it for a few years and see if another baby comes our way?
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